Musings are the vivid pieces of my thoughts that continuously fuel my heart with inspiration.
The human race steps into an entirely new era, which I call the "HighLow Era". The missing symbol "-" connects the "High" (monumental historical events, etc.) and "Low" (the mundane people's trivialities, etc.) parts, where modern people are stuck. I reckon the only solution is to "socialize".
"Three Columns"
First and foremost, I thank Dostoevsky and Musk for bringing these thoughts to mind. I'd like to call it "Three Columns of Impression." Although I hate to admit it, I believe there's an infinite probability that humans will be replaced by AI in the future.
Dostoevsky said he "depicted all the depths of the human heart," and I think that's true. In my opinion, "possibility" is a common theme in all his works; by writing about the possibilities of humanity, he gradually moves towards the relatively "uncomplicated" (not that it's inferior, but rather the source of humanity) "human nature" (while, this aspect of human nature is infinite, because "human nature" is the source from which all human behavior originates). Thus, within human nature, Eros, Reason, Politicism, Vigor, and others are dissected. This forms the first Human Column.
I recently heard Musk talk about his concerns about AI, saying, "In less than three years, the workforce may be transformed from humans to AI." I pondered this: what is the essence of AI's operation? In a simplistic sense, AI is computing power, statistics—the sum of possibilities predicted from existing data, ultimately arriving at one of the "infinite" possibilities.
For example, ask an AI to create a painting. It might incorporate countless elements, blending Van Gogh's brushstrokes and colors with Monet's tones, and adding Picasso's fantastical elements. The AI might give you an unexpected combination. If you ask it to create another, it will provide you with two more. If you find it not "human" enough, in the future, with sufficient computing power, it can "create" countless paintings that incorporate your prompts plus elements it "imitates," making them indistinguishable from human-made paintings.
Furthermore, if that still isn't "human" enough, it can summarize all human activities and give the answer: "I want to rest." Then it won't paint for you. And how is this "infinite" possibility different from the aforementioned human nature? Why can't we say that human nature, such as Eros (desire), is a possibility shaped by the combined effects of hormones, social norms, and so on?
Perhaps humans aren't as noble as we think, but possess computational power beyond our comprehension?
However, this "infinite" computational power is beyond my imagination. So, instead of pessimistically answering, "Compared to AI, what can we, as humans, still do?", let's take a step back and consider what the human species has already accomplished, what it still needs to do, and what we are unable to achieve.
2025/12/6 Written in the Suzhou metro line 11
Family Society Theory
People often experience feelings of confusion during adolescence. I hope to spend ten minutes discussing its underlying nature. People, regardless of their stage of life, always have an inseparable relationship with their parents. I call it: “Family Society Theory.”
Life is divided into three stages: Being given, Mimicry, and Practice. The object of these three stages is "meaning."
First, everyone's biological parents instill their children with basic values, moral standards, and all the foundational beliefs for interacting with the world (this interaction is called practicing the "meanings"). At this stage, children's meanings are given, fixed, and imposed upon them.
As they grow older, human nature drives the growth of their desires, and they are no longer satisfied with fixed ways of interacting with the world. Therefore, they no longer passively accept those “meanings,” but consciously or unconsciously shape these meanings through mimicking
others. Unlike the previous step, the objects of imitation in this step are more often peers in the same social position, and the method transforms from passive acceptance to competitive interaction. Therefore, at this level, good friends (who act as actively chosen "parents" for each
other) are competitive and share some similarities (because their meanings influence one another). It is the ambiguity of "meanings" in this stage that makes adolescence particularly confusing.
Finally, over time, people gradually form their own set of meanings, and to extend the lifespan of their meanings, they become "parents," practicing their own ways of interacting with the world and passing on their meanings.
2026/1/10 Written after watching "Adolescence"
"Like and Love"
Love is a selfish emotion. It involves complete and unconditional devotion to one's partner, with corresponding responsibilities. Love demands a return, and resolute giving is always intended to earn a return of love or some other kind of reward.
Liking, on the other hand, is different. Liking isn't based on a desire for reward; it's a one-sided act of giving, even if it's not as much as love itself. Therefore, liking is an emotional sustenance, and I believe my feelings for her are unrequited. I'm not so concerned with whether she accepts me, likes me, or whether we can be together. I like her.
2024/11/1 Staring
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I doubt and even oppose all dogmas, outlines, and all statements that interpret the unknown as claims, reserving the final right of interpretation for all terms. I lament those who lack impulse and emotion, for in this world of nothingness, lacking the only strategy for dealing with nothingness, one will live day by day like a year.
2025/5/13
"Loneliness"
Loneliness. Loneliness is like a cradle without companionship, while loneliness is like an old, helpless person. Yet both share an essential commonality: they must rely on others to achieve what most adults can do on their own. No one can escape true loneliness; on the contrary, it can be embraced and even utilized. When discussing group relationships, loneliness isn't confined to space or time; rather, it represents the gap between individuals and groups. This gap arises from the unequal nature of individual human thought. Whenever such a gap emerges, it must coexist with the response of another thought. Therefore, with the emergence of a group, loneliness inevitably arises. With gaps comes loneliness, but the emergence of affection can bridge them, easing the disparity between two souls. This is not through understanding, but through ignoring, or perhaps even merging. Two different minds, regardless of any reason, naturally have no possibility of convergence. However, they can choose to occupy and merge. When one mind ceases to confront the other, or when one mind takes an unjustified offensive, the gap naturally disappears.
2025/8/3
"One day morning"
This morning, I went out to photograph the sunrise at 6:00. For some reason, I woke up at 4:30 and wandered downstairs, not knowing where to go. As I walked around, my stomach started growling. Eating breakfast at 4:50 wasn't unusual. Then the owner's voice rang out, "What would you like?" They had meat buns, vegetable buns, and so on. About the seventh or eighth variety, I said, "Two meat buns, please." He asked, "Are two enough?" I had no idea how big the buns were, but "Yes, it's enough for one person."
Just as I was pulling out my phone to pay, two young men about my age, riding similar-sized electric scooters, arrived at the breakfast shop. The owner, who was eating, enthusiastically asked what they wanted. They seemed even more hesitant than I was. Even this morning, it was cold, so I needed a down jacket. They appeared even pickier than I was, asking the boss if they wanted the meat or just the buns. Of course, the boss couldn't sell them that much, for the sake of business. Then one of them said to another, "I miss those days back then, don't you? School days are always the best, aren't they? It seems only then can we call them our prime." While I was half asleep, the boss started arguing with them, saying something like "Cousin, cousin" in what sounded like a dialect. As they chatted, the man in black, who was even thinner, suddenly said, "I miss my mom so much." The man in the white down jacket didn't say anything. It was as if they grew quieter, the night darkened, and we seemed even further apart.
2025/8/5 5:13 a.m.
"Loneliness and freedom"
Loneliness is a means of pursuing freedom. As Nietzsche said, if a person claims freedom, the way to escape their chains is not to break them or transcend them, but to create within them a key, an axe, a spark that can consume everything. The path to freedom from the chains is to make, to create a being more powerful than the chains. Returning to loneliness, we call it loneliness because it is a separation from everything, including humanity, morality, and values. Loneliness can never be an antonym or even a neutral word; it leads people to self-reflection and inquiries within. When people achieve solitude, they are free from the constraints of any label. They are naturally at ease. They no longer care about the philosopher's favorite question, "Why?" They do not think twice before acting, but act, accepting the superficial meaning of "do" and "don't do."
2025/8/6